God Provides Perfectly
The Knowledge that God Provides Perfectly and Generously Should Bring Us Great Peace When We are Tempted to Follow the World's Course of Dwelling on the Things We Don't Have
It's easy to feel like we don't have enough. No matter what we have or how much, we always want more. Like anyone else, I frequently dwell on the things that I don't have, and I often wish I had more material or spiritual goods.
I sometimes wish I had more money, a nice house, a better car, better intelligence, a better spiritual life, and greater mastery of virtues (even one!). It sometimes gets me down. But lately, I've come to realize a few things that set my mind and heart right on this issue, and I wanted to share them with you.
“We'll never be at peace if we always chase down the next ‘more of.’ ”
Even people who have a lot more than I do are generally unsatisfied with life, despite their good fortune. No matter how much we have, we will always want more. Having more doesn't make anyone happy or to feel accomplished or complete. We'll never be at peace if we always chase down the next "more of..." Peace comes when we correct our errant hearts to recognize that God perfectly provides for us. I don't have a lot of the things that I wish I could have, but what I do have is perfect and, in some ways, is more than I need or more than I deserve. My life, and its value, aren't measured by what I don't have but by the perfectness of all that I do have.
I arrived at this conclusion at the end of a long train of thought that started with creation, then progressed to considering that God, who is love itself, is a generous and perfect provider. How do those connect?
Creation and the Perfect Provider
When you observe God's creation, you can't help but conclude that God always goes big. Everything He creates is stunning. The stars, the order of the cosmos, the order of nature on Earth, and the living things found on it are all staggering in beauty, complexity, intricacy, and power. God goes big every time because that is his nature. God goes big, because God is “big”. It would not be his nature to short-change himself by creating something lower or less than His heart’s desire.
When God created the Earth for humanity to live on and created humans to live and exist in this world, he made it all perfect and entirely in line with his heart's desire. This reality of ours couldn't be any better than it is now because nothing can be more excellent than God's desire, and nothing created in line with His desire can be lacking. That means this reality is perfect. His creation is perfect.
When creating us, God didn't say, "Humans would be great with wings! But I'll just give them arms and legs instead." Creating us with legs would be only a degree of perfection because it would be less than His heart's desire of giving us wings. God doesn't do things like that. He doesn’t desire greatness and create smallness. Every aspect and intricacy of creation and life, as God set it in motion, is precisely in line with His will and desire, and that means it's perfect.
It can be hard for us to believe that creation is perfect because we have a faulty understanding of what "perfect" means. We see our lacking or inabilities, compared to those of other creatures, as signs of an imperfect existence ('“I can't fly like a bird can, or see in the dark as a dog can, so I'm lacking”). But inabilities intrinsic to our existence—what we don't have—don't make our existence imperfect, incomplete, or lacking. It's what we do have that matters, and God has provided for us thoroughly, generously, and perfectly.
For example, we can't breathe underwater as fish do, but fish don't experience the world as thoroughly as we do. We have more than we don't-have in that case. We can't see in the dark as dogs can, but dogs don't see as much detail as we do because our eyes process more color and tone than theirs can. We have more than we don't-have. We can't fly like a bird can, but our hands and arms, and bodies enable us to interact with the created world in ways they couldn't imagine. Get the point?
From Creation to Our Personal Life
We tend to judge the value of our lives against the measuring stick of what we don't have. Instead, we should recognize the greater value of what we do have, acknowledging that we possess perfectly what God has perfectly and uniquely provided for each of us. I'd rather have my eyes than a dog's eyes so that I can see a sunset; my mind than an ape's strength so that I can think, discern, discover, and create; my lungs instead of a fish's gills so that I can draw air through my nostrils and smell the spring; my hands and fingers instead of a bird's wings so that I can play music—a different kind of flight entirely! In having less than other creatures, I have more of what matters to me uniquely. Likewise, I may have fewer material, spiritual, or intellectual goods/graces than others do, but I have more of what matters to me in my life, uniquely. God provides perfectly.
Just as creation is provided for, perfectly, what we personally possess in life—material things or spiritual goods—is also perfectly provided by a God who loves us completely. It’s exactly what we need. That's true, no matter how much or how little we have. We have, perfectly, exactly what God ordains for us to have, in line with His heart's desire. Therefore what we have is good and perfect, even if we fail to see it. But we have to try to see it! Where we can't see it, we just have to trust it.
I may not live in the home of my dreams, but the home that God provides for my family and me is perfectly suited to us, even if we may not always see it. Maybe our dream house would be a nightmare to manage or hard to afford in light of unforeseen future expenses known only to God. Maybe our dream house would distract us from something more important that we're supposed to focus on (like the moments we create at home rather than the quality of the house itself). Maybe more money would get between Him and us. Perhaps a better mind would make me more sinful rather than more holy. Only God knows, and that's the point! I don't have a lot of things that I wish I could have, but what I do have is perfect. My life and its value are not less-than because I have less than others. God provides exactly what I need, perfectly.
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"Materially I don't have as much money or all the things that I wish I could have, but I have exactly what I need."
I have come to accept that while I don't have all I want, I have exactly all I need. And that gives me peace. Materially I don't have as much money or everything I wish I could have, but I have exactly what I need. Spiritually I'm not as holy as I want to be and not as virtuous as many others. But I am not without some spiritual gifts and graces, and where I am spiritually is exactly where God wants me right now. Intellectually I have much less than others have and less than I wish I had. But I know that my mind's capabilities and capacity are exactly what I need to live the life God intended for me uniquely. God perfectly provides for me. And the most paradoxical truth in the bombshell is the understanding that God's great love for me is demonstrated not only by what He has provided but also in what He has denied me or kept me from having.
I don't have too-little of anything. Maybe I'll have more of everything in time if God decides that I need it and that I'm ready for it. And maybe I won't, and that's okay. But right now, God has provided exactly what he knows I should have—less than I may want sometimes, but more than I deserve, precisely what I need, and exactly what He, in His infinite mercy and love for me, ordains that I should have. God provides perfectly. And I perfectly possess what he perfectly provides for me. Because I'm aware of that and accept it, I have something that many others don't; something that money can never buy—I have peace. Though sometimes it isn't easy, I'm [increasingly] at peace with my existence. I possess perfectly what God has perfectly provided out of His perfect love and generosity. That is a marvelous thing!
Remember to give thanks for everything. Your gratitude is the only thing you can give to God that isn't already His.
Ave Maria, Virgo Fidelis!
"In having less than other creatures, I have more of what matters to me uniquely. Likewise, I may have fewer material, spiritual, or intellectual goods/graces than others do, but I have more of what matters to me in my life, uniquely. God provides perfectly."
A beautiful way to look at us humans as the wonderful created beings we are. Thanks for this.
You sum up my thoughts this week exactly. I'm a freelancer and this week has been very quiet. Once I would have worried, gone off to so marketing but now I don't worry about it - like you, I have experienced that God provides and he sends work when I need. So I have taken some time off this week and this morning was able to visit the church for some time in front of the Blessed Sacrament which is a rare treat on a weekday. Grateful for thr space this week.